人生

微笑 欢笑 大笑 狂笑
真的是因为发自内心想笑吗？

每天笑脸迎人
就真的无时无刻都这么开心吗？

偶尔我也想大哭一场
悄悄地让眼泪划过
滚烫心里的伤痛
让心情麻木，就不再难过。

无论心情多么糟糕
我都会设法让自己的笑容迎上别人眼帘
因为我不想自己的心情影响身边的人。

同样的
我也只喜欢看到笑容灿烂的人
这样看着会觉得心情大好。

虽不想常常掩饰着自己的心情
但我又不想让别人了解我太多
感觉会少了那么一点安全感吧。

我很珍惜那些在我失落时会逗我笑的朋友
因为他们原本无需这么做。

我很珍惜那些看过我流泪的朋友
因为他们总能预料我乌云密布的时候。

我很珍惜那些用笑容回报我的朋友
因为他们知道笑容能融化我的心。

我很珍惜那些看着我哭，也忍不住哭起来的朋友
因为他们知了我的痛处与难过。

我很珍惜我生命中的每一位过客
因为他们都彩绘了我的每一天。

喜、怒、哀、乐
情感变幻无常，用心聆听自己的声音。
生、老、病、死
生命难以预料，珍惜身边每一个知音。

Mood Change

My mood for yesterday and today is both located at the very extreme part. Yesterday something bad happened and I cried until my eyes swollen. I had did a very wrong mistake about me and him, we have an argument and end up with a very down situation. Luckily thing turns good after a few hours, I have made him  disappointed but he still love me and i feel it.

Okay. Stop talking about the sad part, I am very happy from the morning til now. First because he accompany me to watch vampire's diaries and study last night even though we had an argument before that. Secondly, I woke up after a fully rest, I am energize. So, I start to do something silly, heehee =) I have done my manicure and pedicure but I rubbed off my manicure after awhile because I find it very hard for me to do some house chores and I couldn't do my right hand nicely using my cacat left hand. Haiz... ='( but I am still have a very good mood.

Oh no, I haven't start my study after a very long rest. Okay, is time to off, I should be doing something right now. Goodnight everyone. 

Midnight

Oh no, what happened to me? I woke up in the middle of the night, 2.00am to brush my teeth and have my bath done. When I was in the bathroom, I was thinking, did my alarm just rang? But anyway I faster finished my bath and went back to my room, I straight away look at my clock, 'Ahhh... it's only 2.40am. Y am I so blurr?'

So, I went back to sleep but that time I was thinking is the door lock? Then, I woke up again to checkit. Once again, I laugh at myself because the door is locked but my key is being left outside. >< Luckily I checked for it before I get back to sleep.

Feel quite tired now maybe is because of the incident happened. Wan chien, you shouldn't be this blur!!!

Privacy breaks

I couldn't explain my feeling now, just a little bit sad and down. I need something to brighten up my life again.

Hari Interaksi 'REgeneration' and Crazy meeting Lee Hyun Woo

14 of October, hmm... i wonder is it a really great day? My primary school charity event, my cousin's convocation, my course's interaction day and of course Lee Hyun Woo fan meeting. Actually I should be done this yesterday, but don't know why I couldn't connect to the internet last night. But nevermind, I will do it now. =)

Woke up in the early morning, look towards my clock, 'oh... it's 7am', I went down to DSG after I have prepared myself. The 1st sentence I told to Yun Hua was 'Pay me RM18.40' hahaha... then she replied 'Can you please don't ask for money when we 1st met today?' Definitely no!!! To me, friends are friends, money is another case, i separate this 2 things clearly in my own principle. 

After that, start of the Interaction Day with a theme ' REgeneration'.

Group photo of the juniors

Chit chat among themselves before the event starts, a good chance to interact among each and other.

Me, Yi Teing, Chia Chik (she is totally insane in BSMM det 88W, she post a 'W' even in interaction day of PPD) and Yoke San. We have a snap of photo too. =)

Me and my little buddy. He is tall T_T and i look short when standing beside him.

We also have capture some pictures with 6 dearest juniors of us. Aren't they cute?

My beloved senior, Pikapi... haha~ I used to call him Pikapi. He have treated me very good in the past 1 year.

Yeah... 5 crazy girls. 

After lunch, Yun Hua and I have sneak out to do some crazy things. We left the interaction day half way, and we go for Lee Hyun Woo. We waited him for almost 3 hours and finally he came but both of us already becoming a tin of sardine. We being pushed and pulled all the way and even float in the air for a moment. 

While waiting for his arrival,

 Isn't he cute??? He is so adorable yet handsome. Oh no... can believe my eyes. 

He talked very softly, I couldn't listen to what he was saying because the fans around me keep shouting for his attention.

After all the sweat and dirt, finally we sit at a restaurant, and have our dinner done. The 1st picture I took with my ex roommate. ^^

 我们是疯婆三人组。

A day ended with all kind of emotion. We happy, we laugh; we together, we play. I love my life now. 

Hectic Life

I just have a meeting for the upcoming event and a reflection for the past event. Suddenly, dizziness come against me, stress is all in my head. Reports, assignments, events, everything tie me up until I couldn't breath. I wish every single thing is like stranger, passes by me and say goodbye, but it could only be a dream. I never feel that life could be this hard to survive, everything comes in a sudden. 

But no matter how life go, I have to be positive. Believe in myself, everything will be done in a blink. I will do it well this time. There are many weakness in myself, I see it clearly in every mistake I made, this is an experience of growth. Nobody can live my life for me, nobody can take my responsible from me, nobody can settle my things for me. Only me! I pray hard for a brighter tomorrow, every contribution I make, that is the bridge to success. 

无论生活多么艰苦，无论路途多么崎岖，无论日子多么难熬，我会看见雨过天晴的彩虹。不能忘了每一天都要为了自己笑一次，告诉自己只要越过山腰就会看见彩虹。

Thanks

I think everyone will actually wonder why I'm so happy. The reason why is because I have done a big big project of mine in the Malaysia Red Crescent UKM of detachment 88W yesterday night. Me, as the president of this event, really appreciate all the coorperation and help given by my organization team and also my fellow friends.

This is my crazy team members who have gave me full commitment and coorperation for every single meeting held and even during the last minute rehearsal. 

Don;t forget also my beloved komandan, Chen Yoke San, ketua utama seksyen, Goh Eu Wei and also the ketua seksyen delta, Sia Pei Sin. What I want to tell is all our hard work have becoming a success. =) Thank you very much for all have been done. I love all of you. 

Next, I would like to thank all my seniors who came to support us on this special day, supported the 1st event held by us and giving advises to prevent we get shame ourselves in front of VVIPs. Seniors have pointed my weakness for being a president yesterday night, I should be clear with everything going on during the event, but I didn't done it well, but luckily I didn't ruin every hard work distribute by my organization team and my friends. I will take all the advises as an experience in my life. Thanks you very much! Besides, I have to apologize to all the old board members regarding the jamuan prepared. Sorry! 

Last but not least, all the new BSMM members, thank you for joining this event, and make it a successful ending of the night. I am glad that you all came and join the activities planned yesterday night. I appreciate all.  

There is a long way for improvement, we will do it well in the next coming activities. =D 화이팅!!!

寂寞

每当一群朋友聚集在一起时，欢笑声此起彼落，我根本没有想过自己是否寂寞。但每当自己独自一人时，无论是身在人来人往的市集，或是夜深人静的黑夜，我才开始发觉原来一直陪伴自己的也只有寂寞。

白昼来了又去，黑夜铺成，只有星星懂我心、知我情。感叹人心叵测，围绕我的竟是寂寞。

忏悔

是时候该忏悔了。

上学期的成绩不是很理想，

也不能全怪罪于大学活动。

大学活动虽然很多，有时会有种喘不过气的感觉，

想要放弃的冲动，

但这些活动所带来的意义可能远超越我们能从课面上吸收的，

所以问题应该是在时间的编排上。

我是一个即使有空闲时间可以读书都不想读书的人，

我也是一个无法被压力掩盖的人，

我还是一个无法以课业为最先考量的人。

你们想一想，这样的人，该怎么搞好学业成绩呢？

可是现实逼人，成绩不好的人总会被社会淘汰，

所以我答应自己无论如何这学期拼了，

我的PNGS一定要3.0以上！！！

加油啊！！！

日久见人心

“路遥知马力，日久见人心”

这名句应该是耳熟能响吧，

但我们是否真正了解过它所隐藏的含义。

如今处于不同的环境，

我才真正看出了这其中之意。

人，都会希望别人对自己付出得多一些；

而自己只要站在受利者之际就好了。

想一想，也许很多人认为只要笑一笑，

就能换取别人的陪伴，

其实真心并不重要吧。

一开始以为对方对自己就像自己对他一样都是以真心付出结交的朋友，

但日子久了，对方会开始觉得少了你好像也不怎样，

我才开始发现原来一直以来只有自己傻傻的付出了全部。

就算是这样，我也希望可以真挚的对待每一位朋友，

即使他们并不会珍惜我的存在，

因为我不希望我会变成跟他们一样。

真心付出本来就不应该要求任何回报，不是吗？

只要相信自己绝对是值得珍惜的人，

别人的想法根本无需理会。

成晓诗名句：“只要笑一笑，没什么过不了。”

=)

Depress + Excited

pictures taken from warner music malaysia

How to express my feeling right now? One of my friend say i'm 精神错乱. Haha... but now i really feel that there is no other word to describe me in this moment. I depress because i didn't attend ft island meet the fans event tonight, i feel more depress when i saw all the updates by other primadonnas who went today. They shake their hands, they got a poster with signatures n they do talked to them as well, even there is some lucky primadonnas have won a memory in ft island album in a lucky draw session. Why i isn't lucky enough, i really hope i were there just now. I'm excited because their concert will be hold tomorrow 8:30pm at stadium negara, and i've well prepared for it. Hahaha~ I won't miss it anymore. Ft island i'm coming for you!!! Huuhuuhuu~ What i just told my friend just now is ft island is a type of poison that will initiate dopamine n norepinephrine production in my brain, make me over excited and indicate sympathetic division of autonomic nervous system. Hahaha~ ok. I know i'm crazy, just ignore me. Ok, rest well and save all my energy now, i will be shout n jump like hell tomorrow. Ft island fighting!!!

Play! FT Island Live In Malaysia Here I Come!!!